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Paper Airplanes

by Luis Joaquin M. Katigbak
first published in Philippine Graphic, 1999 ; currently featured in Sitting Amok 8

Let's see. "When I was a child" — uh-oh, here comes the boss. Hit the panic key. Conjure up that C-language code. Nod and smile. He takes a passing glance at my screen, taps the CPU in approval, and then moves on. Right. Like he even understands what I'm working on any more. He's one of the founders of our little computer company, one of the first architects of our library of code - but I think he's forgotten half of everything he's ever programmed. Anyway. Back to my so-called work.

"When I was a child, my main preoccupations were writing stories and making paper airplanes. Both activities were lessons in rudimentary magic: my eight-year-old mind could perceive that there was something extraordinary, miraculous even, in the fact that one could manipulate simple everyday sheets of paper - by making marks on them with a pen, or by folding and tearing - and imbue them with the power of narrative, or flight."

I stare at the paragraph on my screen. It took me something like an hour to cobble those two sentences together. I close the word-processing program, and lean back in my swivel chair, and reminisce. Much easier to recall events and feelings in a hazy, lazy non-order than to try to jot them down in words.

The airplanes, of course, were easier: it didn't take much effort to get one to soar, and once one had the basics down, one could experiment with wing flaps, and paper clips, and insignias. The stories, though - they took a bit more effort. At first I just copied them, line by line, from my Childcraft books, from my Pop Stories for Groovy Kids collection, from fairy tale anthologies and picture books. I had this idea that I could unravel their secrets in that fashion: like taking a paper plane, unfolding it, and observing carefully each crease and noting how it contributed to the overall design. I didn't know then that learning how to ravel and unravel tales was an activity that could take a lifetime. next>>

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